gue gatau berapa kali gue buat salah. berapa kali gue ngulang hal yang sama. berapa kali gue minta sebuah saran yang gue pun tau gue gak sanggup buat lakuin. gue tau gue egois. gue tau gue batu. gue tau orangnya selalu ngelawan. gue juga gabisa kontrol itu semua
saat orang mau gue ngelakuin sesuatu, gue gasuka. gue mau nentang. tapi apa yang keluar dari mulut gue selalu gue mau coba. selalu gue mau usahain. selalu gue mau buktiin kalo gue bisa. tapi selalu gagal dan gapernah berhasil
i've lost you once. why on earth that i give other people chance so i have to lose you without any fighting. i'm sorry. i'm a bitch for you now. i know yesterday was the last time i saw your face. i'm sorry. but these days are fuckingly hard. i want your smile and your big warm hug. i know it's too much and not appropriate because i don't deserve those things. but i need it so bad. please tell me when these jealousy are killing me everything is going to be okay. everything will be just fine.
i know i'm on the edgei know i can't get you back
i know you won't forgive me
i know it's easy for me to give up on you
i know i'm absolutely not good for you
i know i had done something wrong, even God can't give me a mercy
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but it's too late. too fuckingly late
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